Today I went in for the first time with a personal trainer. It was SAD to say the least. I asked how long it had been since he worked with someone as bad off as me. Needless to say he didn’t have an answer. it was both embarrassing and painful. I’m confident he doesn’t think I will be back. I’m putting this on here in hopes it comes up as a memory in a year. Also to help push myself to continue. What I realized today is that this will HAVE to be a complete life style change. I haven’t done any significant working out since 1987 and 1988 and it damn near killed me but I’m still alive. I have to begin waking up at 5:45. I have to completely change my eating habits. I have to begin by cutting my drinking in half at least. There are many changes coming my way and there is a fear that comes with it because too much change can be discouraging. In the end this is a must. I was unable to get up skiing last month for the first time in my life. I’m depressed looking at myself and how far I have let myself go. In fact my weight and overall health is having an effect on everything in my life. Overweight people are beginning to call me a fat ass. Today was a very small and humble beginning to a seemingly impossible road ahead but it’s a start. I WILL BE BACK tomorrow and I will take it one day at a time. Happy hump day people. Here’s to a beginning.